Showing posts with label kwento. Show all posts
Showing posts with label kwento. Show all posts

3.24.2011

Long time looooong time!

I'm not here to explain why I never get to update this blog anymore. I guess, I just am not in the mood in talking to myself and really go deep within my thoughts and really be aware on my own feelings. Di ko alam. Haha! Well, same old same old. Oh, SY2010-2011 is about to end. One of my 2 subjects this sem's already DONE and I hopeour professor gave me something that I can show off to my Mom. Teehee. My other subject (advanced statistics) though, is still on going and will end on the 26th. Same day, we'll have our final exam. I hate numbers. I loathe it more when they're accompanied with different signs, symbols and letters. I MEAN, REALLY? It's complicated enough to divide a multiple digit number right? Let alone solve a mathematical problem I really have nothing to do with it..


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11.26.2010

Thinking The Other Way Around

I may have not been writing stuff lately but that doesn't mean nothing's been happening to me. Actually, the only laptop here in our house crashed thus making it impossible for me to make kwento.

I can never think of any better timing for a come back than today. Here's the thing, have you ever been in a situation where you know what you're about to do is very wrong yet you still go for it? I'm having struggles lately. I know I'm sinning but the problem is, I like doing it. Do I feel guilty afterwards? Yes. It's like a cycle which keeps on happening. I commit the sin, I feel guilty, I run away, I feel convicted, I ask forgiveness. It's the same thing for the past years. I keep doing the same thing OVER AND OVER AGAIN! *Insert Taio's voice here* AND IT GOES ON AND ON AND ON! *higher pitch* AND IT GOES ON AND ON AND OOOON! Minsan, naiisip ko na parang niloloko ko lang yung sarili ko. Parang joke time lang lahat ng efforts ko to resist the sin. Honestly, I even think na God wouldn't listen to my prayers of forgiveness anymore dahil paulit-ulit na nga lang.

Guess what, I have done it again. And the guilt is killing me! I thought of praying kaya lang yung feeling ko na baka hindi na ko pakinggan ni Lord, na baka sawa na sya sa mga sorry's ko, made my appointment with Him, a little late. I know I should pray, confess and ask forgiveness for what I have done. It's not much of a sin for man's eyes pero God doesn't care what our sins are. He sees murder and stealing 10 pesos from your Mom EQUAL. Absurd right? I know! But that's His rule. No "but's" for us.

This morning, after I took my kid sister to school on my way home, I kind of contemplated on what I should do next. I even thought of not attending our music ministry practice but at the back of my mind, someone's telling me to turn to the Lord and continue to go to Church. So that is what I did - I prayed and turned to the Lord the soonest I came home. I also then came across this video posted by a friend of mine. It spoke to me like it was meant for me to watch it! It's kinda creepy and amazing how God speaks to us sometimes, I know! but I would be more terrified if He speaks to me like how He spoke to Moses and Samuel. Me hearing voices? That would make me think that I'm having auditory hallucinations before even realizing it was God talking to me.

I have learned the story of Jonah a looooong time ago when I was in a Sunday school class listening to the teacher and having a coloring story book where I would use the black crayon to color the uber big fish thinking it was a whale. But you know what, the story didn't matter as much as it does to me right now. Everything makes sense!

Jonah turning his back against God's plan for him, aware of what he has done, went hiding thinking God won't find him. Realizing his mistakes, he prayed, ask forgiveness and pursued his mission to Nineveh.

My God is the same God who has forgiven Jonah. The same God also forgave the people of Nineveh from their wicked ways. The God who said "MY LOVE IS GREATER THAN MY ANGER". The God who gave His one and only Son for me. The God who gave me EVERYTHING. What made me think He wouldn't listen and forgive me right? All I need to do is sincerely repent.

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10.06.2010

RANTS no. 101006

Someone I know got herself knocked up for the second time. Actually, nasa 6 or 7 months na siya on the way. This someone is not just any random classmate or friend. Infact, she's my barkada. Nakwento naman nya samin na she has no idea how to tell Tita, her mom na she AGAIN is carrying a little human being inside her tummy - UNMARRIED.

You might think na super manang ko naman mag-react. I know, I know. Girls get knocked up every single day, 3 babies are born every minute, and trust me, I really would like to believe na our youth don't engage in premarital sex and/or they value the sanctity of marriage before going under the sheets and make love. But SADLY, according to UP Population Institute, as cited by mukamo.com (2007), 1 out 4 Filipinos aged 15-24 do engage in sex before marriage. Take note, 3 years ago pa ito. How much more ngayon and in the coming years pa? You might think nanaman na nagmamalinis ako. Nope! I'm 22 years old and I have never engaged in activities which might lead to premarital sex nor the sex itself. For me, sa panahon ngayon, I could say na ACHIEVEMENT ito! Tama?

Anyway, balik tayo sa barkada ko. 2 nights ago, I texted her asking how's the pregnancy going and she replied naman texting back na ok lang daw and hindi daw mashado halata tiyan nya. Tinanong ko rin if alam na ba ni Tita and Tito (who are abroad) na magkakaron na ulit ng bagong member ang family and this is what she texted me:


"Hindi pa nila alam. Saka na lang nila malalaman pag-uwi nila. Ok na yon, sila na bahala umintindi. Ayaw ko masyado mag-isip nanay ko."

Sobrang na-upset ako. Actually, nairita ako sakanya ng bongga kase I know this girl. She is one of the matatalinos in class. She would always excel in our subjects, would always raise her hand if may recitation and I know na she's better than having 2 kids with a man who isn't her husband YET! To top it off, she is freakin' unemployed! Ano ba? Naiinis ba ako? Oo naiinis ako! Galit ako? Oo, galit ako. May magagawa ba ako? Wala. Kase buhay nya yon, at walang ibang nagdedesisyon sa mga dapat at hindi nya dapat gawin kundi siya lang.

Isa pang ikinasama ng loob ko, eh yung ginawa nya sa mga magulang nya. Imagine, kung ako yun. Uuwi ako sa Pilipinas, naka-set ang mind ko sa pagbabakasyon ko matapos ang dalawang taon na pagiging OFW sa ibayong dagat. Bonding kasama ang pamilya. Tapos mamukat mukat ko, yung anak ko, buntis at manganganak na? Eh wala yatang normal na tao ang hindi tataas ang BP at aatakihin eh.

Eto lang ang akin. She made a big mistake by getting herself pregnant. She's making a bigger mistake even by not telling it to her parents. Diba? Fine, alam ng sister nya. Pero kase parents are parents. They don't exist para paglaruan at lokohin. Kung hindi kayang respituhin ang mga magulang bilang magulang, at least respituhin sila bilang TAO.. They deserve to know when their daughters are having a baby. Hindi ko sasabihing I never went behind my parents' back kase I did. A LOT OF TIMES! And I'm extremely sorry for doing that sakanila pero definitely, sasabihin ko if I'm in trouble. AND YES, BEING PREGNANT AGAIN, IS TROUBLE!

Arrrgh. Naiinis talaga ako!


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9.27.2010

I AM LIMITED EDITION!

Walang Church na walang bata. May it be from newborn to toddlers to pre-school children hanggang school aged, MERON ANG BAWAT CHURCH!

3 years ago, nung 3rd year student nurse ako, I would usually sing to crying little children sa mga wards. Songs Barney sing to be exact. And guess what? Most of them would stop crying. Haha! Bukod kase sa maganda ang boses ko, eherm eherm.. Eh, kasing laki rin ako ni Barney! :)))

Anyway, hindi talaga yun ang gusto ko i-share. Nagulat ako kanina sa Church. After the service, this 3 yr old girl named Loraine called me what I thought was "Barney". So I sang her a famous purple dino song. Pero she made me stop singing and shouted Barbie while pointing at me. HUWAW DIBA? Galak na galak talaga ako! Perstaym may tumawag saking BARBIE.

Well I guess I'm a limited edition Barbie after all.

PS. WAG NA KUMONTRA! Bata na ang nagsabi eh. :)))

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9.08.2010

Written Love

TIME SPACE WARP NGAYON DIN!

10 years ago, while the whole world was scared of the Y2K and thinking of ways how to put down the millennium bug on computers, one Friday afternoon, after worship service, just when they're about to go home, some of our Churchmates were persecuted and brought to jail by the moslem police since they've found out that we have a so called "underground Church" at our Villa. (Saudi Arabia is a very conservative country)


As the head of our Church, upon hearing the news, my Dad immediately prepared himself, packed a couple of clothes and brushed his teeth. He was so sure that he will be taken too by the Mutawas. Never ko kinakitaan ng TAKOT ang Daddy that day. He just prayed.

As far as I can remember, marami pang natirang tao sa loob ng villa though mga families na lang naman. My Dad told them what he knew and the rest was history.

Actually, 1 Church member who had the chance to talk to my Father even said that the authorities know every single thing going on inside our house. They even asked him "Who is your Christian leader?" something like that. Ang vague ng araw na yon sa utak ko, flashes lang ang naaalala ko.

Mom was I think 3 months pregnant then with a baby girl. What's odd was, she also didn't show signs na natatakot sya for the life of my Dad. She had faith kay Lord na hindi Niya kami pababayaan at this time.

Basta what happened was, in one week, all the lights were turned off sa buong villa. We didn't even talked loudly. Lahat ng Bibles were put into black plastic bags and distributed to different houses. Yung mga files ng computer about sa Church were all put to "hidden", musical instruments which we use during praise and worship were all bagged out, the Church which used to be a big room was converted into 2 rooms para if by any chance na pasukin ang villa ng mga authorities, wala sila makikita. We still did our everyday routine BUT WITH CAUTION.

1 week passed and thank God, my Dad wasn't brought in for interrogation. Prayers were in-depth during those times. Some people were getting paranoid about the situation, but my Dad's faith was unshakable. 2 weeks after, nothing happened. 3 weeks, still no news. Hindi ko na maalala when it happened pero the people who were brought to jail was pinalaya rin. Hanggang sa balik sa dati nanaman ang lahat sa dati.
 
Dahil sa nangyari, naisip ni Mommy na ipangalan ang FAITH sa upcoming member of the family since faith really was the only reason for us to live just like any other day. EVERYBODY WALKED BY FAITH and LIVED BY FAITH for that 3 long weeks.

September 8, 2000
Baby Faith came into our world. I became an Ate once again. Ang bilis nya lumaki. As a child hindi sya mahirap kausapin. She would crack the family up every time. Hindi sya mahirap alagaan though minsan sinusumpong. She was the perfect little sister an Ate could wish for. AND I HAVE HER! :)



FAST FORWARD September 8, 2010
Faith is now 10 years old. A lot taller than the Faith I saw 10 years ago. Her arms and legs are a lot longer now. She doesn't need a candy to settle things anymore. We don't need to sing for her to go to sleep anymore. She knows how to take care of herself na. Knows what color of shirt ang teterno sa color ng leggings nya. And what color of legging ang teterno sa flip-flops nya. Faith is full of surprises. She never fails to show me everyday na kapatid ko nga sya. The way she speaks, the way she moves, the way she laughs, the way she sees things.. It's like I'm looking at my self 12 years ago. She is indeed a gift from God. A gift that I will forever cherish and love.



HAPPY BIRTHDAY FAITH! I pray na you would grow up according to God's plan and that you honor Mommy and Daddy as you age. I'm sorry if minsan napapagalitan kita. Kung hindi ko gagawin yon, no one will. Alam mo namang busy si Daddy sa hardware, si Mommy malayo si Kuya may sariling mundo. hehe. Wag sana sasama ang loob mo everytime napapagsabihan kita kase I don't get mad naman for no reason diba? Minsan lang pag may sumpong! :))) May the Lord would always fill your heart with love and happiness. You are blessed kaya be a blessing to people rin.

Daddy, Mommy, Ate and Kuya will be forever thankful kay Lord for your life.
We love you so so much.





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9.05.2010

ONLINE SHOPPING

The internet is one of the scariest place I know. I thought I've encountered na lahat ng kabulastugan sa cyber space but I was wrong. Last year, a friend of mine bought a P19,000 2nd hand MAC notebook from ebay. Before pa nya bilhin yon, she had a handful of experience naman na buying her stuffs online kaya mejo ok na lang sakanya makipag-transact ng libo-libo. Little did she know, she's up for a scam na pala. To cut the dramatic and pagka-shonga-shongang story short, AYON! Hindi nya natanggap yung laptop..

Fast forward. MAY 2010!

Nauso sa facebook ang tag-tag ng mga products! May mga damit ng koreano, bad ng koreano, sapatos ng koreano, mga imitation na Lacoste, Jansport, branded make-ups for less, mga Victoria's Secret lotion at perfume na galing Singapore, EWAN! May galing pa nga ng HK! Pinagkaiba daw yung tagal ng amoy sa katawan mo. Slimming pills ng Japon, slimming coffee, at sinong makakalimot sa akala mo NOKIA yun pala NOKLA? For a while, pumatok ang China phone! Mura na, fake pa! PANALO! Replica bags, replica wallets, at eto ang kinaloka ko ng bongga AUTHENTIC BRAND AAA BAGS. anyareh? :|

So dahil super dami kong nakikitang tag tag na ganon sa feeds ko, hindi maiiwasan ang kumlik-click once in a while tama? haha! The first time I tried online shopping, was netong May lang. I bought an 88 palette Coastal Scents make-up which costs P999 yet again, to make my katangahan kwento short, NADENGGOY AKO pH0w$z! :(

But I have been vigilant na after what happened. Yung mga sumunod kong online transactions, naging ok naman na! azamaterofak, I ordered a dress from an online seller all the way from IloIlo pa. Mga plus-size clothes kase ang products nya and here it is!



My package was delivered 3 days after I paid for my items and shipping fee. Notice the necklace? Won it from an online auction naman. I bought it for just P90. P30 cheaper from tiangge and P60 cheaper from malls.

SIMPLE POINTS TO REMEMBER WHEN SHOPPING ONLINE:
- Once na nakakit ka ng something na napupusuan mo, go directly to  terms and conditions nya and check for the mode of payment. If GCASH and/or SMART MONEY lang ang choices, mag-isip ka na. Hanap ka at least bank account.

- Check the seller's albums. Better kung may proof of shippings, receipts and the likes.

- Find people who already had transactions with the seller tapos magtanong.

- Ask as much questions as possible.  and last but not least,

- If sure ka na na legit yung online seller, make sure na you comply with their policy and you pay on or before their cut-off time! :)

HAPPY ONLINE SHAAAAAPENG!

PS. If by any chance na itatanong nyo which online store did I buy my dress, Please check out Pee's Facebook account. :)

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8.30.2010

Lola's Day Out

Both of my grandparents from Daddy's side died before I was born pa. Ang Papang naman ng Mommy ko, namatay waaaay before pa sila magkakilala ni Daddy pero buhay pa si Mamang aka Lola B.

3 days ago, dumating si Lola B. dito sa Manila from Gen.Santos City. I got to see her last Thursday after not seeing her for like 8 years na. Syempre, just like any other family gatherings, FOOD is all around! Lalo na yung Gen.San's finest... TUNA! May picture picture, chika chika. Opkors, narinig ko nanaman yung "Ang laki mo na!" at "Tumaba ka lalo!" HELLO? I haven't seen them in almost a decade na kaya malamang sa malamang eh lumaki at tumaba ako. EWAN! bahaha! Bitter?! =)))


Anyway, my Lola's actually suffering from kidney failure and according to her physicians, end stage na daw. Though ganon ang diagnosis sakanya, trust me, IT DOESN'T SHOW! Her purpose of coming here is para lagyan sya ng IJ cath or internal jugular catheter for her dialysis which was successfully placed naman yesterday. Hindi na kase nagwowork yung ususal sites since nag-shrink na yung veins nya. Let's not be too medical here shall we? Ang gusto ko lang naman kase i-kwento talaga is...

Upon exiting the hospital kanina, tinuro nya ako and she proudly told the guards and the orderly na naghatid sakanya, "Apo ko yan, nars yan". Sobrang napangiti ako ng bongga as in umabot ng tatlong rounds sa peiz ko! haha! Hindi kase kami masyado close ng Lola ko kaya nung pinagmalaki nya ako sa mga random people,  ang sarap lang sa pakiramdam.

On our way home, nabanggit ni Tita na true-blooded SOLID CERTIFIED Kapamilya si Lola. Kaya naman gora kami sa Mo.Ignacia at inikot ikot ko yung kotche sa ABS-CBN. Hindi na lang kami pumasok kase mejo mabilis na sya mapagod.

Sobrang nagpapasalamat talaga ako kay Lord kase He gave us this opportunity para makasama si Lola ng mejo matagal-tagal. Sabi ni Tita En, baka hanggang pasko pa sila dito. HOW FREAKIN' COOL IS THAT? (yuck, kumokonyo. bahahaha!) First time ko magse-celebrate ng christmas with a grandparent! Ano baaa? Excited na meee! :)


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8.28.2010

Super Powers!

Back when I was a child, before life removed all the innocence. Wapaaak! Kumanta? :))) Seryoso na! Naalala ko nung bata pa ko, isa sa maraming tawag ng Mommy ko saken aside from Budang, Pangga, Taglitlit at marami pang iba, madalas nya kong tawaging SIRANIKA. Baket? Kase halos lahat ng laruan ko DAW, eh hindi inaabot ng monthsarry sa bahay namin. Hanggang 10days lang kadalasan ang buhay ng toys ko. Yun ang sabi nya ha. Parang imposible naman para sa isang batang kayut na kayut katulad ko ang mapanira ng toys!


One morning last week, nasira yung electric fan sa kwarto ko. Nasipa ko kase pag-bangon, ayon! Masyadong mabilis ang pangyayari. Hindi ko na maalala. Yeees, parang explenasyon lang ng driver na nakasagasa ng kambing. *eherm eherm*

Fast forward today, nakasira nanaman ako ng fan. This time yung sa kwarto ng mga magulang ko. Anyareh? Seryoso, binaba ko lang yung bilog tapos tumalsik talsik na yung elesi sa loob. AS IN natanggal yung tatlong tipak nya.

Kaya ngayon, natatakot ako tumingin sa salamin kase baka mamaya pagharap ko, kulay green na ako at may masel masel. Wala naman akong naaalalang nakipag-date ako kay The Hulk. OA lang talaga, wala naman kase akong in-exert na effort pero nakasira ako ng dalawang electric fan sa loob ng dalawang linggo. So ano na ko ngayon? Serial killer ng mga electric fan? Ganon? May super powers ba ako na ngayon lang lumalabas? Dati bang super heroes ang mga magulang ko? Kakaloka.

Infairness naman kase, yung una kong fan na nasira last week, 2006 pa. Yung nasira ko naman kanina, 2005 pa. Matagal-tagal na rin ang serbisyo nila. Ano naman ang magagawa ko kung hanggang don lang talaga ang buhay nila.

Tsk! Nonetheless, kinakabahan pa rin ako mamaya pag-uwi ni Daddy! :| Kase kagabi, inayos pa nya yung gulong sa ilalim, kumuha pa sya ng mga turni-turnilyo sa hardware para maayos nya yun.. YARI TALAGA AKO! Maigaaaad! :(((((

Eto sila. Ang walang kalaban-laban kong victims.



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