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3.24.2011
Long time looooong time!
I'm not here to explain why I never get to update this blog anymore. I guess, I just am not in the mood in talking to myself and really go deep within my thoughts and really be aware on my own feelings. Di ko alam. Haha! Well, same old same old. Oh, SY2010-2011 is about to end. One of my 2 subjects this sem's already DONE and I hopeour professor gave me something that I can show off to my Mom. Teehee. My other subject (advanced statistics) though, is still on going and will end on the 26th. Same day, we'll have our final exam. I hate numbers. I loathe it more when they're accompanied with different signs, symbols and letters. I MEAN, REALLY? It's complicated enough to divide a multiple digit number right? Let alone solve a mathematical problem I really have nothing to do with it..
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11.26.2010
Thinking The Other Way Around
I may have not been writing stuff lately but that doesn't mean nothing's been happening to me. Actually, the only laptop here in our house crashed thus making it impossible for me to make kwento.
I can never think of any better timing for a come back than today. Here's the thing, have you ever been in a situation where you know what you're about to do is very wrong yet you still go for it? I'm having struggles lately. I know I'm sinning but the problem is, I like doing it. Do I feel guilty afterwards? Yes. It's like a cycle which keeps on happening. I commit the sin, I feel guilty, I run away, I feel convicted, I ask forgiveness. It's the same thing for the past years. I keep doing the same thing OVER AND OVER AGAIN! *Insert Taio's voice here* AND IT GOES ON AND ON AND ON! *higher pitch* AND IT GOES ON AND ON AND OOOON! Minsan, naiisip ko na parang niloloko ko lang yung sarili ko. Parang joke time lang lahat ng efforts ko to resist the sin. Honestly, I even think na God wouldn't listen to my prayers of forgiveness anymore dahil paulit-ulit na nga lang.
Guess what, I have done it again. And the guilt is killing me! I thought of praying kaya lang yung feeling ko na baka hindi na ko pakinggan ni Lord, na baka sawa na sya sa mga sorry's ko, made my appointment with Him, a little late. I know I should pray, confess and ask forgiveness for what I have done. It's not much of a sin for man's eyes pero God doesn't care what our sins are. He sees murder and stealing 10 pesos from your Mom EQUAL. Absurd right? I know! But that's His rule. No "but's" for us.
This morning, after I took my kid sister to school on my way home, I kind of contemplated on what I should do next. I even thought of not attending our music ministry practice but at the back of my mind, someone's telling me to turn to the Lord and continue to go to Church. So that is what I did - I prayed and turned to the Lord the soonest I came home. I also then came across this video posted by a friend of mine. It spoke to me like it was meant for me to watch it! It's kinda creepy and amazing how God speaks to us sometimes, I know! but I would be more terrified if He speaks to me like how He spoke to Moses and Samuel. Me hearing voices? That would make me think that I'm having auditory hallucinations before even realizing it was God talking to me.
I have learned the story of Jonah a looooong time ago when I was in a Sunday school class listening to the teacher and having a coloring story book where I would use the black crayon to color the uber big fish thinking it was a whale. But you know what, the story didn't matter as much as it does to me right now. Everything makes sense!
Jonah turning his back against God's plan for him, aware of what he has done, went hiding thinking God won't find him. Realizing his mistakes, he prayed, ask forgiveness and pursued his mission to Nineveh.
My God is the same God who has forgiven Jonah. The same God also forgave the people of Nineveh from their wicked ways. The God who said "MY LOVE IS GREATER THAN MY ANGER". The God who gave His one and only Son for me. The God who gave me EVERYTHING. What made me think He wouldn't listen and forgive me right? All I need to do is sincerely repent.
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I can never think of any better timing for a come back than today. Here's the thing, have you ever been in a situation where you know what you're about to do is very wrong yet you still go for it? I'm having struggles lately. I know I'm sinning but the problem is, I like doing it. Do I feel guilty afterwards? Yes. It's like a cycle which keeps on happening. I commit the sin, I feel guilty, I run away, I feel convicted, I ask forgiveness. It's the same thing for the past years. I keep doing the same thing OVER AND OVER AGAIN! *Insert Taio's voice here* AND IT GOES ON AND ON AND ON! *higher pitch* AND IT GOES ON AND ON AND OOOON! Minsan, naiisip ko na parang niloloko ko lang yung sarili ko. Parang joke time lang lahat ng efforts ko to resist the sin. Honestly, I even think na God wouldn't listen to my prayers of forgiveness anymore dahil paulit-ulit na nga lang.
Guess what, I have done it again. And the guilt is killing me! I thought of praying kaya lang yung feeling ko na baka hindi na ko pakinggan ni Lord, na baka sawa na sya sa mga sorry's ko, made my appointment with Him, a little late. I know I should pray, confess and ask forgiveness for what I have done. It's not much of a sin for man's eyes pero God doesn't care what our sins are. He sees murder and stealing 10 pesos from your Mom EQUAL. Absurd right? I know! But that's His rule. No "but's" for us.
This morning, after I took my kid sister to school on my way home, I kind of contemplated on what I should do next. I even thought of not attending our music ministry practice but at the back of my mind, someone's telling me to turn to the Lord and continue to go to Church. So that is what I did - I prayed and turned to the Lord the soonest I came home. I also then came across this video posted by a friend of mine. It spoke to me like it was meant for me to watch it! It's kinda creepy and amazing how God speaks to us sometimes, I know! but I would be more terrified if He speaks to me like how He spoke to Moses and Samuel. Me hearing voices? That would make me think that I'm having auditory hallucinations before even realizing it was God talking to me.
I have learned the story of Jonah a looooong time ago when I was in a Sunday school class listening to the teacher and having a coloring story book where I would use the black crayon to color the uber big fish thinking it was a whale. But you know what, the story didn't matter as much as it does to me right now. Everything makes sense!
Jonah turning his back against God's plan for him, aware of what he has done, went hiding thinking God won't find him. Realizing his mistakes, he prayed, ask forgiveness and pursued his mission to Nineveh.
My God is the same God who has forgiven Jonah. The same God also forgave the people of Nineveh from their wicked ways. The God who said "MY LOVE IS GREATER THAN MY ANGER". The God who gave His one and only Son for me. The God who gave me EVERYTHING. What made me think He wouldn't listen and forgive me right? All I need to do is sincerely repent.
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10.06.2010
RANTS no. 101006
Someone I know got herself knocked up for the second time. Actually, nasa 6 or 7 months na siya on the way. This someone is not just any random classmate or friend. Infact, she's my barkada. Nakwento naman nya samin na she has no idea how to tell Tita, her mom na she AGAIN is carrying a little human being inside her tummy - UNMARRIED.
You might think na super manang ko naman mag-react. I know, I know. Girls get knocked up every single day, 3 babies are born every minute, and trust me, I really would like to believe na our youth don't engage in premarital sex and/or they value the sanctity of marriage before going under the sheets and make love. But SADLY, according to UP Population Institute, as cited by mukamo.com (2007), 1 out 4 Filipinos aged 15-24 do engage in sex before marriage. Take note, 3 years ago pa ito. How much more ngayon and in the coming years pa? You might think nanaman na nagmamalinis ako. Nope! I'm 22 years old and I have never engaged in activities which might lead to premarital sex nor the sex itself. For me, sa panahon ngayon, I could say na ACHIEVEMENT ito! Tama?
Anyway, balik tayo sa barkada ko. 2 nights ago, I texted her asking how's the pregnancy going and she replied naman texting back na ok lang daw and hindi daw mashado halata tiyan nya. Tinanong ko rin if alam na ba ni Tita and Tito (who are abroad) na magkakaron na ulit ng bagong member ang family and this is what she texted me:
Sobrang na-upset ako. Actually, nairita ako sakanya ng bongga kase I know this girl. She is one of the matatalinos in class. She would always excel in our subjects, would always raise her hand if may recitation and I know na she's better than having 2 kids with a man who isn't her husband YET! To top it off, she is freakin' unemployed! Ano ba? Naiinis ba ako? Oo naiinis ako! Galit ako? Oo, galit ako. May magagawa ba ako? Wala. Kase buhay nya yon, at walang ibang nagdedesisyon sa mga dapat at hindi nya dapat gawin kundi siya lang.
Isa pang ikinasama ng loob ko, eh yung ginawa nya sa mga magulang nya. Imagine, kung ako yun. Uuwi ako sa Pilipinas, naka-set ang mind ko sa pagbabakasyon ko matapos ang dalawang taon na pagiging OFW sa ibayong dagat. Bonding kasama ang pamilya. Tapos mamukat mukat ko, yung anak ko, buntis at manganganak na? Eh wala yatang normal na tao ang hindi tataas ang BP at aatakihin eh.
Eto lang ang akin. She made a big mistake by getting herself pregnant. She's making a bigger mistake even by not telling it to her parents. Diba? Fine, alam ng sister nya. Pero kase parents are parents. They don't exist para paglaruan at lokohin. Kung hindi kayang respituhin ang mga magulang bilang magulang, at least respituhin sila bilang TAO.. They deserve to know when their daughters are having a baby. Hindi ko sasabihing I never went behind my parents' back kase I did. A LOT OF TIMES! And I'm extremely sorry for doing that sakanila pero definitely, sasabihin ko if I'm in trouble. AND YES, BEING PREGNANT AGAIN, IS TROUBLE!
Arrrgh. Naiinis talaga ako!
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You might think na super manang ko naman mag-react. I know, I know. Girls get knocked up every single day, 3 babies are born every minute, and trust me, I really would like to believe na our youth don't engage in premarital sex and/or they value the sanctity of marriage before going under the sheets and make love. But SADLY, according to UP Population Institute, as cited by mukamo.com (2007), 1 out 4 Filipinos aged 15-24 do engage in sex before marriage. Take note, 3 years ago pa ito. How much more ngayon and in the coming years pa? You might think nanaman na nagmamalinis ako. Nope! I'm 22 years old and I have never engaged in activities which might lead to premarital sex nor the sex itself. For me, sa panahon ngayon, I could say na ACHIEVEMENT ito! Tama?
Anyway, balik tayo sa barkada ko. 2 nights ago, I texted her asking how's the pregnancy going and she replied naman texting back na ok lang daw and hindi daw mashado halata tiyan nya. Tinanong ko rin if alam na ba ni Tita and Tito (who are abroad) na magkakaron na ulit ng bagong member ang family and this is what she texted me:
"Hindi pa nila alam. Saka na lang nila malalaman pag-uwi nila. Ok na yon, sila na bahala umintindi. Ayaw ko masyado mag-isip nanay ko."
Sobrang na-upset ako. Actually, nairita ako sakanya ng bongga kase I know this girl. She is one of the matatalinos in class. She would always excel in our subjects, would always raise her hand if may recitation and I know na she's better than having 2 kids with a man who isn't her husband YET! To top it off, she is freakin' unemployed! Ano ba? Naiinis ba ako? Oo naiinis ako! Galit ako? Oo, galit ako. May magagawa ba ako? Wala. Kase buhay nya yon, at walang ibang nagdedesisyon sa mga dapat at hindi nya dapat gawin kundi siya lang.
Isa pang ikinasama ng loob ko, eh yung ginawa nya sa mga magulang nya. Imagine, kung ako yun. Uuwi ako sa Pilipinas, naka-set ang mind ko sa pagbabakasyon ko matapos ang dalawang taon na pagiging OFW sa ibayong dagat. Bonding kasama ang pamilya. Tapos mamukat mukat ko, yung anak ko, buntis at manganganak na? Eh wala yatang normal na tao ang hindi tataas ang BP at aatakihin eh.
Eto lang ang akin. She made a big mistake by getting herself pregnant. She's making a bigger mistake even by not telling it to her parents. Diba? Fine, alam ng sister nya. Pero kase parents are parents. They don't exist para paglaruan at lokohin. Kung hindi kayang respituhin ang mga magulang bilang magulang, at least respituhin sila bilang TAO.. They deserve to know when their daughters are having a baby. Hindi ko sasabihing I never went behind my parents' back kase I did. A LOT OF TIMES! And I'm extremely sorry for doing that sakanila pero definitely, sasabihin ko if I'm in trouble. AND YES, BEING PREGNANT AGAIN, IS TROUBLE!
Arrrgh. Naiinis talaga ako!
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9.27.2010
I AM LIMITED EDITION!
Walang Church na walang bata. May it be from newborn to toddlers to pre-school children hanggang school aged, MERON ANG BAWAT CHURCH!
3 years ago, nung 3rd year student nurse ako, I would usually sing to crying little children sa mga wards. Songs Barney sing to be exact. And guess what? Most of them would stop crying. Haha! Bukod kase sa maganda ang boses ko, eherm eherm.. Eh, kasing laki rin ako ni Barney! :)))
Anyway, hindi talaga yun ang gusto ko i-share. Nagulat ako kanina sa Church. After the service, this 3 yr old girl named Loraine called me what I thought was "Barney". So I sang her a famous purple dino song. Pero she made me stop singing and shouted Barbie while pointing at me. HUWAW DIBA? Galak na galak talaga ako! Perstaym may tumawag saking BARBIE.
Well I guess I'm a limited edition Barbie after all.
PS. WAG NA KUMONTRA! Bata na ang nagsabi eh. :)))
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3 years ago, nung 3rd year student nurse ako, I would usually sing to crying little children sa mga wards. Songs Barney sing to be exact. And guess what? Most of them would stop crying. Haha! Bukod kase sa maganda ang boses ko, eherm eherm.. Eh, kasing laki rin ako ni Barney! :)))
Anyway, hindi talaga yun ang gusto ko i-share. Nagulat ako kanina sa Church. After the service, this 3 yr old girl named Loraine called me what I thought was "Barney". So I sang her a famous purple dino song. Pero she made me stop singing and shouted Barbie while pointing at me. HUWAW DIBA? Galak na galak talaga ako! Perstaym may tumawag saking BARBIE.
Well I guess I'm a limited edition Barbie after all.
PS. WAG NA KUMONTRA! Bata na ang nagsabi eh. :)))
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9.21.2010
Extremely Dengue-rous
For years now, walang palya ang dengue sa pagpapahirap sa mga Pilipino tuwing tag-ulan na lang. Nursing student pa lang ako, di ko na mabilang ang mga bata and/or adults na na-handle ko with DENGUE as their diagnosis.
Personally, hindi ako natatakot sa dengue na yan. Pero guess what, isa ako sa mga na-sampolan ng virus. Hindi ko na maalala kung kelan at saan ako ninakawan ng halik ng aedes aegypti mosquito. Hindi ko na rin ie-elaborate kung ano yung nangyari sakin during the disease process kase I believe it's not THAT important.
What's important is how the Lord worked in our lives during that 1 whole week. It is only by His grace talaga na gumaling ako. I never asked Him those dramatic lines like "BAKET AKOOOOO?" or yung "GRABE NAMAN LOOORD, BAKET DENGUE?". Hindi ko alam pero during those times, may peace talaga sa heart ko na gagaling ako. Mejo mahirap and matagal nga lang, pero I felt safe. I know He's with me.
I think sa isang buong linggo, I saw my Dad cried for like 3-4 times kase he was trying his best na pababain yung fever kong naglalaro lang between 39.4 - 40. Hindi kase tumatalab ang Paracetamol IV push sakin. Not to mention, I have my IV and oral antibiotics ren. Hindi naman daw sa pagiging weak yung pag-iyak nya nor sa kawalan ng faith kay Lord. It's just that as a parent, nahihirapan sya na nakikitang nahihirapan ako. Yan yung sabi nya sa nurse na nakahuli sakanyang umiiyak. hehehe.
Ang stand ko lang talaga when I was on the hospital bed was that Jesus Christ died on the cross for me to be saved. How much harm can a single female mosquito do to me? It can only do much..
Anyway, here I am now. I am okay! VERY MUCH OKAY! And I thank the Lord for showing me the YAHWEH that He is in 1 whole week. He showed me He's Jehovah Ezer, the God who helps; Jehovah Jireh, the God who provides; Jehovah Shammah, the Lord who is there, Jehovah Shalom, the God of peace and most specially, Jehovah Rafah THE GOD WHO HEALS.
My prayer right now is that may I be as strong spiritually and as dependent to God as I am when I was hospitalized. Kase I think, that is how it should be done. :)
COMMERCIAL MUNA
MORNING SHIFT (wednesday)
Nurse1: "hello. inom ka meds."
Ako: "wala po kayo dito kagabi ah."
Nurse1: "Off ko eh. May lahi ba kayo ng highblood or diabetes?"
Ako: "wala po"
Nurse1: "baka sayo palang magsisimula"
Ako: "Kelan ulit off mo? :) echosera ka!"
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Personally, hindi ako natatakot sa dengue na yan. Pero guess what, isa ako sa mga na-sampolan ng virus. Hindi ko na maalala kung kelan at saan ako ninakawan ng halik ng aedes aegypti mosquito. Hindi ko na rin ie-elaborate kung ano yung nangyari sakin during the disease process kase I believe it's not THAT important.
What's important is how the Lord worked in our lives during that 1 whole week. It is only by His grace talaga na gumaling ako. I never asked Him those dramatic lines like "BAKET AKOOOOO?" or yung "GRABE NAMAN LOOORD, BAKET DENGUE?". Hindi ko alam pero during those times, may peace talaga sa heart ko na gagaling ako. Mejo mahirap and matagal nga lang, pero I felt safe. I know He's with me.
I think sa isang buong linggo, I saw my Dad cried for like 3-4 times kase he was trying his best na pababain yung fever kong naglalaro lang between 39.4 - 40. Hindi kase tumatalab ang Paracetamol IV push sakin. Not to mention, I have my IV and oral antibiotics ren. Hindi naman daw sa pagiging weak yung pag-iyak nya nor sa kawalan ng faith kay Lord. It's just that as a parent, nahihirapan sya na nakikitang nahihirapan ako. Yan yung sabi nya sa nurse na nakahuli sakanyang umiiyak. hehehe.
Ang stand ko lang talaga when I was on the hospital bed was that Jesus Christ died on the cross for me to be saved. How much harm can a single female mosquito do to me? It can only do much..
Anyway, here I am now. I am okay! VERY MUCH OKAY! And I thank the Lord for showing me the YAHWEH that He is in 1 whole week. He showed me He's Jehovah Ezer, the God who helps; Jehovah Jireh, the God who provides; Jehovah Shammah, the Lord who is there, Jehovah Shalom, the God of peace and most specially, Jehovah Rafah THE GOD WHO HEALS.
My prayer right now is that may I be as strong spiritually and as dependent to God as I am when I was hospitalized. Kase I think, that is how it should be done. :)
COMMERCIAL MUNA
MORNING SHIFT (wednesday)
Nurse1: "hello. inom ka meds."
Ako: "wala po kayo dito kagabi ah."
Nurse1: "Off ko eh. May lahi ba kayo ng highblood or diabetes?"
Ako: "wala po"
Nurse1: "baka sayo palang magsisimula"
Ako: "Kelan ulit off mo? :) echosera ka!"
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9.10.2010
Bee-A RN
I was once a fresh graduate of Bachelor of Science in Nursing.
For us nursing students, graduation marks the beginning of our career. Hindi katulad ng ibang courses, na kahit hindi passer ng board exam nila, they can land into a job na connected sa field nila. Sa amin,
In order for one to pass the exam, syempre kelangan mag-review. Some would prefer to review on their own, while others (yung mga tamad at bulakbol sa school), mas pipiliin ang pumasok sa review center. Ako? Pumasok ako sa review center.
I then met our adviser named BRYAN ALVIN BAUTISTA on our first day. My first thought was, "haha! kamukha ni Bugoy (the singer from PDA)". Maitim, matangkad, payat, maraming pimples.. At kung magsalita, ang aligaga! Minsan, sablay pa ang mga banat at punchline.
But guess what...
This Bugoy-look-a-like reviewer of mine is one of my favorite teachers of all time. He was able to answer all my out-of-this-world questions back when I was still his reviewee. He can be funny at one point pero pag review na ang usapan, SERYOSO SYA. Minsan ko lang to sabihin pero he made taking the board exam so much easier for me.
yada.yada.yada. So much of him being my teacher!
Bahahaha! Dahil ngayon, friends na kami. In fact, we both are enrolled in the same school (Trinity University of Asia), taking up the same course (Master of Arts in Nursing) and we have been classmates in many subjects.
Does that mean nagmamalaki ako? NO.
Ginawa ko tong entry na to show my appreciation and gratitude sakanya. Etong taong to, marami ng nagampanang roles sa buhay ko. Teacher, nurse, friend, nanay, tatay, boyfriend, yaya, driver, at kung ano ano pa. Name it, KAYA NYA. I am really really thankful for Bryan's life kase little did he know, yung mga tawanan namin sa parking lot after class really means a lot to me. May mga times na sobrang down ako, pero those silly things na sinasabi nya, nagiging uppers ko.
You may not know it pero sobrang masaya ako to have come to know you. I thank God for your life and I pray that may He bless you and your family more. I wish you LOVE, HAPPINESS and GOOD HEALTH. Our friendship is precious to me. Special ka sakin. So special na gusto na kita ibaon sa ilalim ng lupa para itago. bahahaha! Joke lang! I love you bek. MWAH!
PS. Hindi na sya Bugoy ngayon. Kamukha na nya yung recent partner ni Kim Chiu sa isang TV show. Gerald Andekhdjfhl, ulit! Gerald Anders1wdewero. tsk. AYAW TALAGA EH! Ai Ai Delas-Alas na nga lang. Labyu Bryan! I miss you na rin. :)
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For us nursing students, graduation marks the beginning of our career. Hindi katulad ng ibang courses, na kahit hindi passer ng board exam nila, they can land into a job na connected sa field nila. Sa amin,
MAKE OR BREAK ANG
PHILIPPINE NURSING LICENSURE EXAMINATION.
In order for one to pass the exam, syempre kelangan mag-review. Some would prefer to review on their own, while others (yung mga tamad at bulakbol sa school), mas pipiliin ang pumasok sa review center. Ako? Pumasok ako sa review center.
I then met our adviser named BRYAN ALVIN BAUTISTA on our first day. My first thought was, "haha! kamukha ni Bugoy (the singer from PDA)". Maitim, matangkad, payat, maraming pimples.. At kung magsalita, ang aligaga! Minsan, sablay pa ang mga banat at punchline.
But guess what...
This Bugoy-look-a-like reviewer of mine is one of my favorite teachers of all time. He was able to answer all my out-of-this-world questions back when I was still his reviewee. He can be funny at one point pero pag review na ang usapan, SERYOSO SYA. Minsan ko lang to sabihin pero he made taking the board exam so much easier for me.
yada.yada.yada. So much of him being my teacher!
Bahahaha! Dahil ngayon, friends na kami. In fact, we both are enrolled in the same school (Trinity University of Asia), taking up the same course (Master of Arts in Nursing) and we have been classmates in many subjects.
Does that mean nagmamalaki ako? NO.
Ginawa ko tong entry na to show my appreciation and gratitude sakanya. Etong taong to, marami ng nagampanang roles sa buhay ko. Teacher, nurse, friend, nanay, tatay, boyfriend, yaya, driver, at kung ano ano pa. Name it, KAYA NYA. I am really really thankful for Bryan's life kase little did he know, yung mga tawanan namin sa parking lot after class really means a lot to me. May mga times na sobrang down ako, pero those silly things na sinasabi nya, nagiging uppers ko.
HAPPY BIRTHDAY Bee-A!
You may not know it pero sobrang masaya ako to have come to know you. I thank God for your life and I pray that may He bless you and your family more. I wish you LOVE, HAPPINESS and GOOD HEALTH. Our friendship is precious to me. Special ka sakin. So special na gusto na kita ibaon sa ilalim ng lupa para itago. bahahaha! Joke lang! I love you bek. MWAH!
PS. Hindi na sya Bugoy ngayon. Kamukha na nya yung recent partner ni Kim Chiu sa isang TV show. Gerald Andekhdjfhl, ulit! Gerald Anders1wdewero. tsk. AYAW TALAGA EH! Ai Ai Delas-Alas na nga lang. Labyu Bryan! I miss you na rin. :)
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9.08.2010
Written Love
TIME SPACE WARP NGAYON DIN!
10 years ago, while the whole world was scared of the Y2K and thinking of ways how to put down the millennium bug on computers, one Friday afternoon, after worship service, just when they're about to go home, some of our Churchmates were persecuted and brought to jail by the moslem police since they've found out that we have a so called "underground Church" at our Villa. (Saudi Arabia is a very conservative country)
As the head of our Church, upon hearing the news, my Dad immediately prepared himself, packed a couple of clothes and brushed his teeth. He was so sure that he will be taken too by the Mutawas. Never ko kinakitaan ng TAKOT ang Daddy that day. He just prayed.
As far as I can remember, marami pang natirang tao sa loob ng villa though mga families na lang naman. My Dad told them what he knew and the rest was history.
Actually, 1 Church member who had the chance to talk to my Father even said that the authorities know every single thing going on inside our house. They even asked him "Who is your Christian leader?" something like that. Ang vague ng araw na yon sa utak ko, flashes lang ang naaalala ko.
Mom was I think 3 months pregnant then with a baby girl. What's odd was, she also didn't show signs na natatakot sya for the life of my Dad. She had faith kay Lord na hindi Niya kami pababayaan at this time.
Basta what happened was, in one week, all the lights were turned off sa buong villa. We didn't even talked loudly. Lahat ng Bibles were put into black plastic bags and distributed to different houses. Yung mga files ng computer about sa Church were all put to "hidden", musical instruments which we use during praise and worship were all bagged out, the Church which used to be a big room was converted into 2 rooms para if by any chance na pasukin ang villa ng mga authorities, wala sila makikita. We still did our everyday routine BUT WITH CAUTION.
1 week passed and thank God, my Dad wasn't brought in for interrogation. Prayers were in-depth during those times. Some people were getting paranoid about the situation, but my Dad's faith was unshakable. 2 weeks after, nothing happened. 3 weeks, still no news. Hindi ko na maalala when it happened pero the people who were brought to jail was pinalaya rin. Hanggang sa balik sa dati nanaman ang lahat sa dati.
Dahil sa nangyari, naisip ni Mommy na ipangalan ang FAITH sa upcoming member of the family since faith really was the only reason for us to live just like any other day. EVERYBODY WALKED BY FAITH and LIVED BY FAITH for that 3 long weeks.
September 8, 2000
Baby Faith came into our world. I became an Ate once again. Ang bilis nya lumaki. As a child hindi sya mahirap kausapin. She would crack the family up every time. Hindi sya mahirap alagaan though minsan sinusumpong. She was the perfect little sister an Ate could wish for. AND I HAVE HER! :)
FAST FORWARD September 8, 2010
Faith is now 10 years old. A lot taller than the Faith I saw 10 years ago. Her arms and legs are a lot longer now. She doesn't need a candy to settle things anymore. We don't need to sing for her to go to sleep anymore. She knows how to take care of herself na. Knows what color of shirt ang teterno sa color ng leggings nya. And what color of legging ang teterno sa flip-flops nya. Faith is full of surprises. She never fails to show me everyday na kapatid ko nga sya. The way she speaks, the way she moves, the way she laughs, the way she sees things.. It's like I'm looking at my self 12 years ago. She is indeed a gift from God. A gift that I will forever cherish and love.
HAPPY BIRTHDAY FAITH! I pray na you would grow up according to God's plan and that you honor Mommy and Daddy as you age. I'm sorry if minsan napapagalitan kita. Kung hindi ko gagawin yon, no one will. Alam mo namang busy si Daddy sa hardware, si Mommy malayo si Kuya may sariling mundo. hehe. Wag sana sasama ang loob mo everytime napapagsabihan kita kase I don't get mad naman for no reason diba? Minsan lang pag may sumpong! :))) May the Lord would always fill your heart with love and happiness. You are blessed kaya be a blessing to people rin.
Daddy, Mommy, Ate and Kuya will be forever thankful kay Lord for your life.
We love you so so much.
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10 years ago, while the whole world was scared of the Y2K and thinking of ways how to put down the millennium bug on computers, one Friday afternoon, after worship service, just when they're about to go home, some of our Churchmates were persecuted and brought to jail by the moslem police since they've found out that we have a so called "underground Church" at our Villa. (Saudi Arabia is a very conservative country)
As the head of our Church, upon hearing the news, my Dad immediately prepared himself, packed a couple of clothes and brushed his teeth. He was so sure that he will be taken too by the Mutawas. Never ko kinakitaan ng TAKOT ang Daddy that day. He just prayed.
As far as I can remember, marami pang natirang tao sa loob ng villa though mga families na lang naman. My Dad told them what he knew and the rest was history.
Actually, 1 Church member who had the chance to talk to my Father even said that the authorities know every single thing going on inside our house. They even asked him "Who is your Christian leader?" something like that. Ang vague ng araw na yon sa utak ko, flashes lang ang naaalala ko.
Mom was I think 3 months pregnant then with a baby girl. What's odd was, she also didn't show signs na natatakot sya for the life of my Dad. She had faith kay Lord na hindi Niya kami pababayaan at this time.
Basta what happened was, in one week, all the lights were turned off sa buong villa. We didn't even talked loudly. Lahat ng Bibles were put into black plastic bags and distributed to different houses. Yung mga files ng computer about sa Church were all put to "hidden", musical instruments which we use during praise and worship were all bagged out, the Church which used to be a big room was converted into 2 rooms para if by any chance na pasukin ang villa ng mga authorities, wala sila makikita. We still did our everyday routine BUT WITH CAUTION.
1 week passed and thank God, my Dad wasn't brought in for interrogation. Prayers were in-depth during those times. Some people were getting paranoid about the situation, but my Dad's faith was unshakable. 2 weeks after, nothing happened. 3 weeks, still no news. Hindi ko na maalala when it happened pero the people who were brought to jail was pinalaya rin. Hanggang sa balik sa dati nanaman ang lahat sa dati.
Dahil sa nangyari, naisip ni Mommy na ipangalan ang FAITH sa upcoming member of the family since faith really was the only reason for us to live just like any other day. EVERYBODY WALKED BY FAITH and LIVED BY FAITH for that 3 long weeks.
September 8, 2000
Baby Faith came into our world. I became an Ate once again. Ang bilis nya lumaki. As a child hindi sya mahirap kausapin. She would crack the family up every time. Hindi sya mahirap alagaan though minsan sinusumpong. She was the perfect little sister an Ate could wish for. AND I HAVE HER! :)
FAST FORWARD September 8, 2010
Faith is now 10 years old. A lot taller than the Faith I saw 10 years ago. Her arms and legs are a lot longer now. She doesn't need a candy to settle things anymore. We don't need to sing for her to go to sleep anymore. She knows how to take care of herself na. Knows what color of shirt ang teterno sa color ng leggings nya. And what color of legging ang teterno sa flip-flops nya. Faith is full of surprises. She never fails to show me everyday na kapatid ko nga sya. The way she speaks, the way she moves, the way she laughs, the way she sees things.. It's like I'm looking at my self 12 years ago. She is indeed a gift from God. A gift that I will forever cherish and love.
HAPPY BIRTHDAY FAITH! I pray na you would grow up according to God's plan and that you honor Mommy and Daddy as you age. I'm sorry if minsan napapagalitan kita. Kung hindi ko gagawin yon, no one will. Alam mo namang busy si Daddy sa hardware, si Mommy malayo si Kuya may sariling mundo. hehe. Wag sana sasama ang loob mo everytime napapagsabihan kita kase I don't get mad naman for no reason diba? Minsan lang pag may sumpong! :))) May the Lord would always fill your heart with love and happiness. You are blessed kaya be a blessing to people rin.
Daddy, Mommy, Ate and Kuya will be forever thankful kay Lord for your life.
We love you so so much.
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